It was a good weekend, a couple of soccer games, a couple of rides, getting more things ready for the trip, and just enjoying living again. Played with the GoPro again. Still working on it before I leave, but got a little in:
Went to Mass tonight, always good for the head, to realize what has been given up for you even though you never can deserve it. I was having a conversation the other day with someone and I told them I am in this weird place where I question my faith in God, I question if I truly believe that I can hand over my life to him, as scarred as I am, as many mistakes as I have made, that he loves he and accepts me. The reply I got was, "Isn't it nice to know that no matter what how much you question the answer is still the same?"
Today's Gospel reading was Mark 8 : 25-37 which concludes with:
"Whoever wishes to come after me must deny himself,
take up his cross, and follow me.
For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it,
but whoever loses his life for my sake
and that of the gospel will save it.”
Does that not make you wonder what your cross is? What is it in your life that you have to pick up and basically give to God. We all have our "crosses to bear", but what is it in your life that is holding you back from the life you could have? Is it what people think about you, is it a fear of failure, is it regret, or is it something physical that your dealing with...whatever it is pick up that cross and loose your life by giving it to God, thats the only way you will truly live.
I hope everyone had a good weekend...Have a great day at work! I have a very important appointment tomorrow!